Ever after.

Saturday, February 11, 2006, 10:45 PM

♥ Intoxication

tears under my
covers its smt you'll never see
i went in to deep and i'm
struggling to escape .

dont ask me if i'll ever understand
but everything around me
seems to say that your gonna be the one .

until the day we either get tired
or one of us hurts the other ,
i dont think i'll ever go
i dont think i'll ever know

i wont forget the rides we took
just silence and smiles my head
on your shoulder whispering the
days events quietly,
ignoring the questioning looks given
by the rear view mirror
laughing at almost nothing

you walked by my house yesterday
you left your footprints outside my
door the scent of ciggerete mixed
with collongeits
my poison, my intoxication .

10:44 PM

♥ torment

whats wrong tell me
being in the dark
isnt the least bit appealing
the fear that somethings
happened seems to consume
me completely

i see you and i can barely get
anything out
cause people will talk
people will judge and
we would have all to loose

can we just be normal for abit
sit around a talk for abit
let me know let me understand
this torment seems to have no end .

10:44 PM

♥ torment

Tuesday, March 22, 2005, 3:46 AM

♥ Rhymes.

Take me up
spin me round
throw me right back on the ground.

Stupid people
stupid faces
run away to empty spaces

Hit me hard
Slap me red,
make me just increase the hate

Make belief
it ain't true
makes me wanna puke on you.

(short , not so sweet, way of venting frustration with rhyme....? wadeva)

Wednesday, March 16, 2005, 3:49 AM

♥ Un-thanked For

my life has totally changed
since i cant remember when.
I don't need anybody claiming they'd
help me when , their life isn't any better.
My whole life, spent pleasing ppl.
Never did i once look at myself in the mirror and ask
WTF are u doin.

But now, i've seen

and i look completly like shit.

Not superficialy,

but deep within.

I look like someone, completly

driven into insanity.

And now i've cleaned up this mess.

And given everyting a rest.

It took me a hour,

to clear up a mistake that could've

taken me a life time.

And now here i am, my thoughts cleared

self respect regained.

Turn and look at the new me ,

middle finger in your face.

Saturday, February 05, 2005, 4:40 AM

♥ Payback girl its called payback

so u really think we believe you
the way u pretend and act
we get so fed up.
You think we all love you
You need a reality check girl
everyone hates you

You cling to us like a leech
get a life and get out of ours
Your friends have long left you
Cause of what you did.

Scratch your head and figure it out.
You've tossed all of them before and
found new. Now they've learnt
and done the same,
and your left with you.